this is a revelation brought to you by a push-over admin who thinks she absolutely must please everyone : you don’t owe anyone anything. not ever. a handful of my muses have been slipping from me and i feel like a hideously terrible person for it. but i shouldn’t. no one should.

my muse for Eska is so strong, so breathtakingly solid and i have had the pleasure of meeting some splendidly nice people who have invited me into the fandom. i feel confident, happy & there isn’t a lot of stress. i haven’t felt like this in ages and that’s disgusting & horrific because that’s shat it’s all about: creative storytelling with companions & friends & having fun! so just, never forget that. it seems i keep forgetting & constantly work myself up over the feelings of others & feeling obligated to do things elsewhere. remember that you need happiness and fun too.